Friends
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
blogged @ 7:20 PM
Don't judge me cos you ain't me.No, i'm not being emo by walking away. Its just me. I can't fit in and i NEVER try. What's the point? Once fitted in, i get squeezed out again. I'd rather be a loner.
I hate crowds, cos there's always 1 who gets left out. And i'm always that 1. No, no, no.. I'm not blaming any one of you, i don't usually do that. It's just that i'm too/very/super sensitive. I try to avoid hurting myself, but the more i try, the worse it becomes.
"But you've got Agnes what.."
Ya, i've got Agnes when there's no one else. Sorry Agnes, i'm just speaking my mind.
You complain that your friends 'pang seh' you, and the friendship gap is getting bigger/further/bigger/further. Yea, i understand how you feel. But when they talk to you, you simply forget that i even existed. You are simply contradicting yourself. So i should just forget about everything and just do it my way.
If it was not for God, i would have committed suicide a long long time ago. Don't worry, i've gotten used to being left out. Its the same everywhere i go. The problem is not with the people, its with me. Uncomfortable with strangers cos they don't know me yet and they LOVE to judge.
Ofcos i don't just complain, i say thank yous too. Thank God for friends who gets me in and out of trouble. Haha, that makes life exciting right?
I need friends who would
dance with me like we're retards,
laugh with me like we're freaks,
sing with me like we're on drugs.
haha, but hey-- we're having fun (:
But never mind the past, lets look forward to the future! I'M NEVER GOING TO SMILE!
I have feelings and i show it. You guys can't see cos you chose to ignore it.
Wow, you readers are actually getting to know me better! Whatever.
