You know what? I can't take it.

I admit, i did say i hate shuyi. But did you ever realised that no matter how much i hated her or did mean things, she never did anything back to me? I only ignored you and what? You post in your blog that i am a liar, i don't appreciate you, gives critic comments, seldom nice and all the other shits. Well, i'm so going to prove you wrong.

#1. Liar
I didn't lie to you about hating shu yi. I was the PAST. Now is the present. I like Shu yi now becos i didn't see what she really is on the inside. I disliked her because i though she was noisy. But it's her hyper activeness that makes her and the ppl around her happy. And i'm sorry for even suggesting to make a blog against her with you. We both learnt a lesson.
I told you the other week i hate shu yi becos i thought she pang sei me.

But there's another reason to why the 'Liars' didn't go out with us the other day. And it had nth to do with shuyi or amanda or shirley disliking me.

#2. Not appreciated
Says you that i never appreciated you for doing nice things for me. I remember every single one okay! To make you feel better, i'd even type it out for you.
-When i had chicken pox, you visited me, made me onigiris, helped me collect my homework
-Then the other day, you made food again, (I HAD NO IDEA IT WAS FOR ME.) but i didn't eat all of it and we both got mad at each other. You just said that you were going to bring it school but you didn't say that it was for me. so how was i suppose to know.
-You stood up for me when chin yi avoided me becos she thought that i was still contagious.
-You scolded shuyi when she said i had ji-pox

see.

#3. Give critic comments, seldom are nice.
See who's not appreciating who. You only remembered my flaws. I'm the one that YOU"RE not appreciating. Don't even remember the things i did for you. Most probably you wld have just said "got meh? where got?" I commented on your art last year. the one about the fashion thingy. i said that you blended it very well. i even took a pic of it to keep it as remembrance. Maybe i shouldn't appreciate you or your art since you ONLY REMEMBER FLAWS!

#4. Using you for my own gains.
Ha, when? if you're talking about me bluffing miss ho that you didn't pass me the qns to do for tys, then you're not even forgiving. I apologised to you on that day itself right? i told you that i'm sorry for getting you into trouble right? In fact you didn't even get into any trouble. Miss ho found it out anyway. So now what? Digging up the past?

You're not any better yourself. Say you don like amanda/shuyi/shirley. But when you need smth, you act so nice and friendly just so that they can accompany you to pierce your ear or print pictures. Ha, look who made that statement. You are using them for your own gains as well.

#5. Influenced ur grp of friends and at that point of time made you feel so lonely.
Excuse me? Since when did i have that influential ability? Which grp of frens are you talking about anyway? Xinying&co or shirley&co?
IN THE FIRST PLACE, IF YOUR FRENSHIP WITH THEM IS STRONG, NTH COULD HAVE COME BETWEEN YOU ALL.
Lonely? come on, every time when you're mad at me, you go and find kristine or shirley. Then what about me? I got so sticky to you that whenever you didn't want to talk to me, i had NOBODY. i'm not like you, can go with anybody, even with the ppl you dislike. Well, it's different now. see how much changes can happen overnight?

#6.Character
You think you're the one giving in? Lemme ask you, how did you ever gave in to me? By sulking and rolling your eyes? wow, i'm impressed. When we have grp projects i suggest a way, you suggest yours, in the end i insisted on my idea. So, yea, you gave in, and brought along your attitude with you. You'll just sit there and sulk, or do your own things, throw tantrum and then say "ya la ya la, whatever you say lorh. think that you idea is the best." Isn't it the same as the erhu tee? (even though it has nth to do with me, i'm just reminding you that that's your attitude.) And it's the same as last year when we had this Apple thing where we were suppose to animate using pictures or smth. In the end you got frustrated and ran off to another grp, leaving us to do it ourselves. "you don even need me.." And it was called group work. Xinying's grp even credited you "extra:agnes".
If you think that i have a problem with my attitude, i'm telling you, i'm that damn straightforward. Too bad that you don like it when the rest are taking it pretty well. But i can't say likewise for you. Don't be too arrogant, thinking that you are well liked. But if you have any other things to say about me flaws, you're welcomed to. Cos, as i've said, if that's what you want, it's what you'll get. Remenber,i only ignored you, nth else. But you started this first. Even though you were too chicken to type my name.




This is not war yet, it's confrontation. If you want it your way, i can say even more. Examples? Like what ppl are saying BEHIND your back without any influences.

Yay! Finally over. Me and amanda went to shuyi's hse. She's down with flu! We talked, we ate, we laughed. Not bad xD

I read Agnes' blog, Friday October 3rd. wowee. Is this like a fight or smth? I'll think about it, if i should 'retaliate'. I was advised by shu yi NOT to. >.> Tsk tsk, looks like i'm the 'bad' guy here. Haha, that's too damn contradicting! Lols, we'll see about it. :D



P/s: If i'm realy that MEAN, then why do i get along better with others? Is it cos i'm full of LIES? Think about it. If it's a blogging war you want, you're so damn going to get it. 1 week to delete your post and i'll delete mine.
"And that's not a threat, it's a promise."-Desmond Ng

Yay! today i got my hair cut. i wanted it to look like agnes' but it ended up a little different. I think it's becos of the way the guy cut it. My hair is qiao qiao one. Ha. Anyway, while getting my hair cut, they played a movie, Money no enough 2. damn funny. the mother asked the kept asking the son if he had eaten again and again. I was like trying hard not to laugh just in case my hair accidentally kenna cut wrongly. but the guy was laughing also, so he stopped a while. HAH. So cute xP he quite shuai leh! then every time he try to check the side of my hair same length anot he'll like look at me straight, not from the mirror. Wah!!!! haha, crazy about shuai ges xD

No more chicken pox. I'm 100% okay! Actually i could have gone to school today but i didnt want to. Cos i still have some scabs and scared you all avoid me. See la, all your fault.
Yesterday Agnes and Kristine came over and visited me :D Actually they have motive one. They came over so that i could help Kristine with her art project -__-" Mean right. Haha, but it was fun. Her theme was about cockroaches. So we made 1 big and 3 small ones. Didnt get to complete totally but we finished 60% of it :) not bad.
And oh ya, Agnes cut her hair! So cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute!!! I also want!!! so she promised to bring me tmr! We're going to have the same hairstyles. Hahaha. But i'll look better.WAHAHA :P kidding. Agnes! you looked damn cute. Muck :D

short and simple.

I had a nightmare last night, too many worries. But this one has NOTHING to do with any of my probs.
I dreamt that i was like a few weeks pregnant -__-" Twins summore (I donno how i found out about this). Haha, so funny. I went to a ear piercing shop and found out about the gender of the babies, 2 girls. I think i named 1 of them Denise.
Then i had another dream. I wasn't pregnant anymore, but my cousin was. (Not so clear, kinda forgot a little) We were playing poker in a room then suddenly my another cousin said, "wait, i have to check on the baby." She rushed out of the room. I just sat on the bed waiting. Then donno why, the pregnant cousin and i looked at each other then we also rushed out of the room.
Donno how, we ended up on a deserted road with a van behind us. The road was in between the field and we were standing under a street lamp. Everyone was wearing clothes that belonged to the 70s? Anyway, 1 pontianak (lets call her pom) pop out then cornered my cousins and one of their husband. Cousin 1 tried to hide her 1 yr old son under her shirt and cousin 2 was so frightened that she squatted there holding her stomach and just cried. Her husband was trying to comfort the wife and shoo-ing the pom. She was about to attack them. It scared the hell out of me.
Then again change scene. I was in my my room, at night again with the same situation. It's like we just changed the place but the pom was still there trying to attack my cousins. They were at the entrance of my room. I was on my bed and seriously, i didn't want to do anything cos i was afraid. But then sit there and watch them getting attacked also cannot what, i mean have to try and help right? I am amazed that even in dreams i can still reason out things. So i walk near to the pom lorh. Then she screamed, "Don't come any nearer unless you want to die with them!" Wakao -__- Scary. Anyway, i didnt listen and i tried to switch on the lights in my room. I though maybe poms are afraid of the light. I couldn't reach it. And....

I woke up. Haha. My whole body was numbed, especially my legs. So you see? I didnt get to sleep well at all. I remembered that poms are afraid of sharp objects so i was trying to think of what sharp objects do i have in my room, and i thought of the thumb tacks. Small but i have a lot. (this part is STUPID) i tried to sleep again and then dream of that dream and i wanted to help my cousins by attacking the pom with the thumb tacks. Haha, my bravery. LOLS. but i couldn't sleep. So i didnt get my chance. Hiyo. If only i had thought about it earlier. Anyway i hope that these weird dreams are not true.


Now, it's time for QNS and ANS!

#1. What are you doing now?
-Blogging

#2. Why? (stupid qns)
-

#3. What do you intend to do later?
-Study and eat.

#4. Why?
-Cos exams are near.

#5. How are you feeling?
-Nothing

#6. Are you missing anyone (like their faces/behaviour/irritating-ness)?
-No.

#7. Why?
-Donno

#8. What subjects are you going to miss?
-Lazy to check.

#9. Any smses from ppl who are concerned about your absence?
-No.

#10. Hehe, what did they say?
-NIL

#11. Anything else you want to say?
-I had a scary dream.

#12. ANY LAST WORDS? (Before you publish this post.)
-Nope.

What are your current fears?
I'm afraid of school. It's stupid but it's true especially when you've been at home for 9 damn days, missing out on everything. You won't be sure when you go back to school if your friends will still treat you the same.
This is how i imagine school life will be after i recover:
(Compo style! Haha.)

I want to see my friends but i'm afraid that they wouldn't recognise me after 2 weeks. Maybe they won't even like me now, or they've never liked me. So nervously i walked towards my classroom. Besides the sound of the raindrops crashing into the ground, i could hear the usual chatters and shrills of laughter. Yep, that's my class alright. Always so high in the morning. Maybe they haven't changed, maybe it's still the same. So full of maybes, i stood at the entrance of the class, waiting for someone to say "Hi!" or give me a warm welcome back. Everyone had stopped what they were doing and there was dead silence. They were all staring at me. Why? Are they too surprise to see me? Or was is the other way round?
I glanced at my bestfriends, they too were staring at me. Their stares were icy cold, no longer laughing like what it used to be. Why? I felt a lump in my throat. Holding back my tears, i walked towards my seat confidently. There's someone in my seat. Great! First my friends, now my seat.
Feeling angry and sad at the same time, i looked straight into his eyes and mumbled, "Fine, take it. Take everything i have." I moved towards the back of the class where there was an empty seat at a corner. Taking my place, i looked around again. Everyone had gone back what they had been doing.
There's Gerald, he wouldn't ignore me, he's always nice. With that feeling of 'there's hope after all!' i greeted Gerald with a small smile, "Hi Gerald!"
He gave me an irritated look and went back to his reading. Did i do something that offended someone? Idk, but it seems like the class dislikes me a lot. Maybe it's just that i've never noticed it before, but what IS their real usual self? Moody, thinking about how to get rid of me?
Lessons wasn't any better. i didn't even understand a single words the teachers were saying and whenever they looked at me, they had they same cold stare. It was like a world full of hatred (for Grace) and they showed to love or concern to each other.

End.
SCARY!!

Anyway, yesterday Shu yi, Amanda and Shirley visited me :D Shirley can earlier and helped me with my chinese ws. And then we talked and played audi. Amanda and Shu yi came at 6.00 and left at 6.10
Too many problems, so i've decided to give up on everything. Everything means guys and maybe afew frens.
To the guys i'm talking about:(andy) If you're going to ignore me in school for the rest of your life then I'M DAMN OKAY WITH IT! I tried talking to you but you just pretended that i didn't exist! Stupid. I'm not talking to you. And i hate you like how much i hate school and like how Daffy duck hates Bugs bunny. You're most probably why i hate school. ARGH!!!!!
(umm..)Not your fault, i'm like that.
And to the frens i'm talking about: Shit you.


Now, it's time for QNS and ANS!

#1. What are you doing now?
-Blogging

#2. Why? (stupid qns)
-

#3. What do you intend to do later?
-Study and eat.

#4. Why?
-Cos i want to make my parent proud of me.

#5. How are you feeling?
-Angry, pissed, sad, afraid

#6. Are you missing anyone (like their faces/behaviour/irritating-ness)?
-No. Maybe i'm not going to miss anyone anymore.

#7. Why?
-Cos.. idk, maybe it's cos my imagination seems too real.

#8. What subjects are you going to miss?
-POA

#9. Any smses from ppl who are concerned about your absence?
-Nope, not today. But in total i got smses from Agnes, Juo Yan, Shirley, Ryan, Jun Yan, Gu Xie, Siti, one unknown person.

#10. Hehe, what did they say?
-I don want answer lehhhh.

#11. Anything else you want to say?
-Donno. i have a lot ot say but then bu fang bian shuo.

#12. ANY LAST WORDS? (Before you publish this post.)
-I don want to go back to school :( Scared you all bully me then don fren me then i'll be lonely in school, and i'll be left out, and i'll b sad then i'll cry and commit suicide. Then it'll be your fault. Actually, it sounds like a damn good idea to sabo those that i hate. I can write a letter why i commit suicide then i go die. Then when you all read the letter you'll be guilty forever. Muaha. Not bad, not bad.

I tried asking her again. Same answer. The problem is not with "my father in Singapore so he's fetching me to school" The thing is you cannot u-turn here for just 1 minute meh?

Most probably this will be what she'd say:
"What for? just for you? No way."
YES, JUST FOR ME.
"Crazy, why would i want to waste patrol and time just to help you collect homework?"
COS WE'RE FRIENDS! THAT'S WHAT WE DO FOR EACH OTHER. SACRIFICE A LITTLE!
"Have you done anything for me?"
Ya, but if you're so calculative, then i think we shld forget it

I sound like my cousin. Haha
Get the point?
No, the point is not that grace sounds like her cousin!
-__-

Now, it's time for QNS and ANS!


#1. What are you doing now?
-Blogging

#2. Why? (See? I'm getting rid of this qns by not answering! Yipee >.>)
-

#3. What do you intend to do later?
-Audition and homework!

#4. Why?
-Cos it's fun. Eh, i didnt know that audi got x2 den lorh. I mean like x2 den for FREE. i nvr buy the whatever.

#5. How are you feeling?
-Happy, YIPEE. Chicken pox is history!

#6. Are you missing anyone (like their faces/behaviour/irritating-ness)?
-Shirley.

#7. Why?
-She say she'll try to visit me today. So i'm very excited :D:D:D Haha.

#8. What subjects are you going to miss?
-Math and AS AGAIN!!!!

#9. Any smses from ppl who are concerned about your absence?
-WAHAHAHA. HAVE!

#10. Hehe, what did they say?
-BUT I'M NOT TELLING YOU. I'm not sharing. Wahahahahahhaa.

#11. Anything else you want to say?
-I did, but i forgot. -__-

#12. ANY LAST WORDS? (Before you publish this post.)
-Ya. See, so i'm not at fault right? She's not at fault either. I blame the friendship. Not strong. And maybe my stupidity too. WTH DID I SEE IN HER?

OK, monday.

7 more days to go! Chicken Pox 7 days old! Hey, it rhymes. Haha. So on Sunday, you're suppose to rest right? NO. Agnes is coming with my pile of homework. Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

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I'm Miss 은혜 (Eun Hye) I live in a cozy house over that street.
I like being random. I love eating pocky sticks. I wish to be smart someday.
I wish i can fly. Being invisible is good

I am currently studying Digital animation in Singapore Poly
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